I suck at life.

So, I've managed to piss off almost everyone in my life, with the exception of Brana.
How?
I don't know.
Actually, I do know. It's a series of backstabbing bitchiness in which I AM NOT THE ONLY GUILTY PARTY.
Becky bitches about cherish, I bitch back. Cherish bitches about becky. I sometimes bitch back. Becky bitches about candace. I look at her and someitmes agree.
Becky tells cherish I bitch about her and doesn't mention that she's the one saying most of it! So cherish tells becky that I also bitch about her.
Whoopdi doo.

This sick friendship I have going on with becky is quite abusive to me. (prolly her, too.)
First of all, she hates me. Yeah, then why do we hang out?? I dunno. I like her, but its also because I'm a very needy person and have to be with someone basicly all of the time or else I go crazy ("I get lost, messed up and bored when i'm alone too long. I can't sleep, function or eat when I'm not with someone") and we've been doing this thing forever.
Grr. And she's fun to bitch with.
But it fucking hurts my feelings when shes being...well, for lack of a better vocabulary, mean and I can't stand it. The only one I really bitch that much about it cherish. And I like cherish. when shes being Cherish, that is.

God, I send myself into exile all too often.
[the panic begins...I suffocate until the end]
High School sucks.

You can't get drunk off of pucker. easily.
and i'm still thinking about how I hit travis.
And god i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me i hate me.

I'm a fucking skank, a bitch, a liar, a backstabber, fat, worthless, rude, mean, off-kilter...

god.

[it had to be you, I knew it was you]